Embrace Change

When there is a bout of low mood, a period of good mood will follow. This past few days I have been unnaturally motivated. To say, quit my stable job and pursue a FA career and to start jogging again. Generally I felt revitalised. Sch might have been the cause. I felt an immediate release after the exams even I already know I would not fare well. Now I felt so much like quitting sch.

After a conversation with lishan today, sch could well be my source of network with a pool of professionals and working individuals waiting for me to tap on if i am a FA. Still working on the feasibility of becoming a FA. I do not hope uni studies to be part of the list of things which i have done halfway.

Similarly, if really I do decided to become an FA, I do not hope it will be another thing that I will give up halfway. But there comes an important qns, what would make me not give up halfway. I realise, right until now, my life has always been abt myself and myself. I do not give 2 hoots or what I do, what i live for. Simply said, I lived without a purpose.

Now part of me wish that there will be someone who i can live for, who can help me uncover the gem in me, understand me, embrace me, empower me. Does such a person exists? Or is she around me now...

My mind has remained closed about life for quite sometime ever since 2007. All I want is some stable job to sustain me. Now my mind seems more poised and open to take on life's challenges again. It is like the flame in me is re-ignited.

A strange train of thoughts. Would it be just another passing impulse, inspiration or would it be something that will shape my future just like how mlm did in those days.

Lets see how it flows...

posted by Charlie @ 1:13 AM