Sunday, March 13, 2005

What?!

What happened? Another case of Murphy's law. It all went wrong and I do not know where I am, where do I stand, what am I doing and what am I supposed to do. Am I not to do anything right?

Yes. No.

I am so caged up in the shadows of my past. So much I wanted walk out but the claws of inferiority is pulling me back so readily when I faced a great adversity.

Theories theories. So much going thr my head, often conjuring an false image of myself in contrast to my natural apprehensive and paranoid self.

Am I not too cowardice as to affirm myself.

Maybe no.

In retrospect, maybe what I did was right. After all its a whole lot truth of my feelings while all the time it might not be something she want to hear.

Well, I should really start being truthful and stop denying myself.

Believe in urself cheewee.