Embrace Change

Scream!!!!!

Just a moment ago i again chilled my mum passion for my well being. She is extremely concerned and certainly expectedly over-reacting to the wellness of my physical, since i just undergo 2 weeks in camp with 7 days out-field living on green packs of grotesque rations which otherwise only wild boars favours. I hate to scream at my mum but i seems to be too mentally exhausted these days that i simply cant control my raging emotions.

My physical was still hanging around there. However there seems to be a hollow which i am repetitively drawn into. I got deeply troubled since i got into the army. All the interaction with ppl of all sorts of background and the things we have to go thr each day. And the time constraint is really making me losing contacts with alot of frens. Even though i do get to hang out with my mates. But at the end of the day, i usually feel lonely, depressed, tired.

Inside of camp, i got really despondent over the real cohesiveness of my platoon mates. Our interaction with each other are exceeding superficial resulting in lots of misunderstandings and accusations to occur when something happens. All these are tearing us apart and without cohesiveness, we wont be able to excel and grow during this time. All the individualistic behaviours really disgusts and disappoints me. However this is not just the army.

It is reality. A disgusting truth.

And i am finding it hard to cope with it....

I dunno how i fell into this quagmire and i am really finding it hard to get out of it.

Now it is back to camp, away to SIT test. Back to out field.

6 more weeks to POP!!!

posted by Charlie @ 4:34 PM